Preparation

It is only a few days before the beginning of school - my last year before graduation. It is also less than a week before I begin working as an intern in my field that I have been preparing for so very long. I am getting myself as organized as I possibly can by printing out the syllabus and the readings for the classes that have them up online. It is exciting because I can feel the approach coming.

I have many concerns about the coming year. Some of them have to do with all the things that I am just vaguely aware that I don't know and yet will have to learn and do. Others have to do with living in a new place and how I will adapt to the new people and surroundings. I have faith that it will all smooth out once I am in place but it makes me anxious just the same. Another reminder that I can not live in the future but need to refocus on what is here and now before me. 

Before the beginning

Limbo is uncomfortable for me. We all know that place where we are ready to begin but it is not quite time. So we have to wait. During the wait I find so many questions. Will I have what it takes to do what I am preparing to do? What kinds of things do I need to bring with me that will help me accomplish what will happen? What will it be like?

Of course, there are no real answers to these questions until we get there. So now I need to practice patience and redirect my focus to those things, events and people that I need to deal with in the present moment. Much of my lessons at this time seem to be centered around this idea of living in the moment. So I must let go of the unknown of the future and pay attention to the now.